Did I mention that I was an alcoholic and a prescription drug addict? Well it is true, and it has taken me 10 years to get where I am today. I was a chronic relapser. In the past 10 years my longest sobriety has been 2 years and 9 months. I just couldn’t quite get it. I always seemed to forget the problems that alcohol and Ativan caused me. This past weekend I finally hit that number again, but this time I am going to keep going. Things have been different this time around. I have finally become a part of my 12 step group, I am in not just around the fellowship. I have more gratitude, I am doing more service work and I finally really like who I have become (well for the most part). Today I have choices and I choose to be sober … at least for today. We only have to do this one day at a time. To think too far into the future is overwhelming. I am really excited to make it to the next milestone … 3 years, but I can not get ahead of myself.
I recently got a new sponsee, my first one, I love her, she is great and has so much potential. I am excited to share my experience, strength and hope with her. I have a lot of experience in what not to do. I hope my trials can save her some pain and that I can successfully take her through our 12 steps. I know I can not alone keep her sober, but I will do my best to be the best I can be to help her muddle through this thing we call alcoholism.
So today it has been 2 year, 9 months and 3 days since my last relapse / drink. I am looking forward to seeing where the rest of this sober life will take me …. One Day at a Time.
