Steve, the girls and I spent Christmas this year in Key West, Florida. It was nice to be with the kids together for a week in the sunshine. Our time together is limited since Allie lives away and Kirsten is still in college. We had a good time.
I did miss getting together with the extended family and our Christmas tradition of making braciola for Christmas dinner that my Dad started when the kids were young. A tradition that the grandchildren insist on keeping since grandpa passed away in 2010. It is a great memory we all share and a tie that binds the family. But going away every couple of years is my little family tradition – this was our 3rd Christmas away and one we may not be able to do much longer as my kids get older and get on with their lives.
In Key West there was a lot of drinking and bar hopping. I did well, drinking is not an option, but it sure did look good and I felt a little left out. I managed. We went on a couple of fun excursions … we did a food tour, a sunset cruise and got out of our comfort zone and went to our first drag queen show. The drag show was so fun and entertaining. The food tour was informative and delicious and of course I was the only one not again not drinking alcohol. The sunset cruise was just ok, beautiful sunset, but too many people.
I am glad we went and that we had some quality family time. But Christmas just didn’t seem like Christmas this year, it was just another day in the sun and I really did miss being home with the rest of the family. I still have a pile of gifts to give.
On another note ….. my therapist is officially retiring at the end of the year. So I had my last appointment with Judy before our trip. It is weird. I have been going for so long … like 15 years or so. She has seen me through so much and knows me so well. I feel like we have broken up or something, that the relationship is just cut off. I really don’t know how to process it. I do have someone else – I have switched over to seeing Shelley, the person who was originally our marriage counselor. But it is change and I don’t do well with change. I will always be in therapy, I just need it!
I still have trouble with change and control …. and fear of missing out.
Vacation was wonderful, but there is no place like home!!!