Winter break is in full swing for my college senior. Mom here, is having mixed emotions. This will be the last time she will be home for any length of time. After graduation, her and her roommates are planning to stay in Chicago. Chicago is a 5 + hour drive, not hateful, but not very close to home. My oldest, is talking about moving from Columbus, Ohio (a 1.5 hour drive from home) to Dallas TX. She has a couple part time jobs in Columbus, but has not settled in with her career. I am proud of my independent girls, but I also love it when they are home.
I will have Kirsten home for a little less than 4 weeks and Allie for 4 days. I will cherish the full house. I don’t know when we will all be home under the same roof again. The empty nest is getting emptier. It is real world time for my girls. I am not sure what that is going to look like. 2020 will be an interesting year, but exciting. There are so many unknowns that we will get to watch unfold for our children.
It is definitely a bag of mixed emotions that I am trying not to dwell on. I will live in the moment and enjoy the Christmas / winter break season with my husband and my girls as well as extended family. This may be the last year for all our family traditions. I can not project what the future will bring so I will not worry or stress about it until next year.
As I have learned in my 12 step program, I will stay in the now, be present, take it one day at a time and have gratitude.