I have been feeling a little isolated from my tribe during this time of quarantine. I had been doing zoom AA meetings and some meet ups with friends. It is not the same in any way shape or form. I have been missing the personal interaction, the hugs and the fellowship that takes place before and after meetings.
With that being said, I had been getting complacent with my meetings. Zoom was just not getting it done for me and I have been getting irritated with the technical difficulties and with everyone looking to me to get them fixed. I was getting nothing out of these meetings … I just could not pay enough attention, so I quit logging on. We all know that no meetings is not the correct answer. I was getting very irritable and just feeling out of sorts being “off schedule”. I think a lot of the state and country is getting sick and tired of the isolation. We want to stay safe and healthy, but we also want to get back to life outside of our homes.
So I made the bold decision to go to a meeting in person. I have mentioned before that our club is still open for meetings. I had not been to an in person meeting in over a month. It felt good just walking into the room. The chairs are socially distanced, we don’t hug one another or hold hands during the Lord’s Pray. But still … some people just got too close. No one wore a mask (including me). I loved being in a meeting, but at the same time did not feel totally comfortable with it. I think the media and everything has everyone so scared of contacting the coronavirus we just can’t relax while we are out, I know I couldn’t. It doesn’t help that I am one of those people they talk about that need to be extra careful due to the auto-immune disease.
I don’t think it is time yet for me to be at in person meetings, but I am not sure what to do now to get a meeting. I am probably going to have to continue to suffer through those zoom meetings, it is better than nothing at all. I also think I need to try some other zoom meetings away from the club …. ones I am not in charge of. What I really need to do though is pay attention during the meetings and not get so easily distracted.
The million dollar question is when will all this be over? When will we find our new normal way of life in light of this pandemic? Everyone is getting anxious, I know I am. I really need to reconnect with my people and I look forward to when we can do that … in person!